Divine Harem: My Sect of Heavenly Beauties

"My Sect still didn\'t give up and the Emperor easily massacred the members of my sect. He\'s a cruel bastard so he massacred only men who tried to resist and kept women alive. For one simple reason, he wanted to give them to his soldiers to play with."

She sighed and continued her tragic tale.

"I had lost my will to live, honestly. But I knew everything was because of me, so I accepted his proposal. I used some methods which I don\'t want to go in details for now, to force him to make me the empress and also let go of my Sect.

"Even though he\'s a madman, he knows how to do things. He knew if he tried to push us to the end, he would just get a backlash. Our sect has a history of many years, after all."

She sighed.

"And that big incident ended with me marrying the Emperor and becoming the Empress. On the first night, he defiled me and honestly, I don\'t even remember that day. It was a chore to me. After that day, he lost interest in me for some reason and never bothered with me.

"I was fine with it and simply secluded myself from everything, wondering why was I even alive at that point? What was the point of my existence? I thought of ending my life a lot but I couldn\'t bring myself to do that for some reason."

She touched her stomach and smiled genuinely, for the time in a while.

"After a few days, I found out that I was pregnant. I didn\'t know how to feel about that, honestly. It was a bizarre feeling, I was so young and was already pregnant. I didn\'t know what to do with that information, especially since I never wanted to raise that bastard\'s child. But the child was still my blood in the end and I couldn\'t bring myself to end the fragile life."

Li Xiaojing could feel the walls she had built around her heart crumbling down, as she felt the warmth beside her. Smiling, she continued.

"What was it\'s fault? None! So, I decided to raise the child. But I knew given my unstable position, even if the child was born in this world, it would not live a good life. Heck, even being alive was impossible. So, I finally found my resolve and reason to live. I wanted the child to grow up and live a life I could not."

Her eye showed firm determination as she remembered her old days.

"It might sound I\'m arrogant but I was always good at making people like me, as if I had a strange charisma to me. I used many schemes, plans, my own Cultivation and a lot of things to gather my own faction secretly. By the time the Emperor knew of it, my faction had grown immensely powerful, especially since it included the remnants of Mystic Moon Sect."

Her smile turned strange as she said.

"I was happy as I was finally able to relax a little, since Xiaoyan was happily enjoying her childhood. Unfortunately, it was as if the heavens was infuriated that I was finally smiling so it decided to throw my life into chaos once again."

Shen Yu listened everything without intervening, as he was also interested in her past.

"I had read records about the Eyes of Heaven so when Xiaoyan was showing the signs for that, I knew what it was. Knowing it, I got scared and decided to seal it. Since you know what it is, then you should know how dangerous it can be. I was afraid of things she can see. But as time went by, I noticed that Xiaoyan was beginning to behave a little strangly. I tried to find the reason but there was nothing wrong with her, so I contacted the most knowledgeable I know."

Seeing the faint smile on her face, Shen Yu asked.

"Your mother?"

Li Xiaojing smiled.

"Yes, my mother, the Sect Leader of Mystic Moon Sect. She was adventurous in her younger years and had collected information about many things. So when I contacted her, she told me to unseal Xiaoyan\'s eyes as they were harming her.

"Unfortunately, you know how the events after unsealing were. Xiaoyan just grew scared of everything, even of her own mother. I still remember the fearful look she gave me back then, that really hurted me, you know. But I couldn\'t even blame her."

She took a deep breath and continued.

"But I didn\'t give up. She is my daughter, my everything. So, although it took some time, I gradually brought her back to normal with my love and support, or atleast that\'s what I thought. But looking back, I guess she just got used to everything and matured early on. She saw my intentions and decided to open her heart to me, but that was only for me. It was then I learned of the things she saw in her Visions, the things that had been tormenting her for years. I cried a lot that night while hugging her."

A bittersweet smile appeared on her face as she said.

"And that silly child accompanied me and comforted me. She was the one who was going through all that, but I was the one who needed to comfort. I really am pathetic, aren\'t I?"

Shen Yu chuckled softly.

"I disagree with that. I\'m sorry, I\'m not good with words so I can\'t really express my feelings properly. But, you are the greatest mother I\'ve ever known, Xiaojing. It\'s just the circumstances which forced you and Zhiyan into such a state. Honestly, I can\'t imagine myself doing the same if I was in either of your\'s shoes. So, don\'t look down yourself, as you are also looking down on Zhiyan by doing that. You are her everything, she looks upto you so are you saying her judgement is bad?"

Li Xiaojing was stumped.

"You say you aren\'t good with words, yet in such a short time, you have shaken my heart so much just by your words. You truly are devious one, Hubby."