I Have Yet to Become a Doll Today

However, it was indeed hard to figure out Shen Mo’s tastes. From childhood to adulthood, this cousin of his seemed to have never had a particular liking for anything, including hobbies and romantic relationships.

Back in the day, Shen Fei and his peers had many preferences like a particular game, a movie, a pop song… They would imitate the dressing styles of celebrities, cheer for a soccer match, keeping a fresh and robust interest in everything.

But Shen Mo was always indifferent.

Even with academics, he only stuck to routine without much zest. Every task he performed was like a robot, precise, perfect, but rigid.

He faintly remembered once overhearing his uncle and father at a family gathering discussing how this kind of personality suited better if Shen Mo joined a military academy as he might struggle to succeed in other fields.

Later on, it came to pass that Shen Mo did indeed go…

Thinking about all this, and then thinking about how differently Shen Mo treated Bai Youwei, Shen Fei couldn’t help but feel peculiar.

“Hey, why are you zoning out?”

Bai Youwei waved her hand in front of his eyes, “Is my dress okay? Actually, the bonfire party would match better with a red dress, but since we just played the game and red implies blood, I chose blue. How does it look? Pretty?”

“Um…pretty.” Shen Fei nodded affirmatively, “My brother likes blue.”

“Great, let’s go.” Urged Bai Youwei, “Hurry up, back to the square.”

She had it all figured out. Though she couldn’t dance, she was determined to stand up, and with railings, she could even walk a few steps.

She wanted to face the crowd.

She wanted to see a different self in his eyes.

She eagerly wanted to.

…

Driving back to the square only took several minutes.

On their way back, they bumped into some young boys and girls returning from the square.

Bai Youwei had spent quite a while showering, drying her hair, dressing up, and by the time she finished, the bonfire party was near its end and some people were already heading home.

Shen Fei, gripping the steering wheel, saw a couple kissing under a tree. The headlights unintentionally shined upon them, causing the surprised couple to glance their way, which made Shen Fei blush.

The girl at the scene covered her collar, complained that the boy shouldn’t do such things by the road. The boy wrapped his arms around the girl’s waist, whispered soothing words which just made the girl more embarrassed, and she playfully chased him to the other side of the road, disappearing quickly from sight.

Shen Fei had encountered such scenes before and didn’t feel much, but now with Bai Youwei in the same car, he inexplicably felt awkward and embarrassed.

He coughed lightly and told Bai Youwei in a normal tone, “I’ll park the car ahead and take you to my brother.”

Bai Youwei said, “Forget it, let’s go back.”

Shen Fei stopped, “Why…”

“Can’t you stop asking why!” Bai Youwei suddenly exploded, angrily saying, “Why why why! I don’t know why! I don’t know! Can’t I just want to go back?!”

Shen Fei stared at her in silence.

Bai Youwei turned her face away in frustration, silently gazing out the car window.

An awkward silence spread throughout the car.

Neither of them spoke.

Shen Fei couldn’t understand why she exploded out of nowhere. She had spent over an hour grooming herself. Why didn’t she want to go now, when they were just about there? She seemed to be in quite good spirits just now. How did it suddenly…

He knew better than to ask any more questions. Silently, he turned the car around and took Bai Youwei back home.