If You Could Hear My Heart

“Mo Shuifu, we’ll talk about our issues later, I’m taking you to the operating room!”

Shen Shihan didn’t allow her to refuse, grabbed her hand, and headed outside.

His face exuded calm and stability; his thin lips lightly pursed, his gaze sharp, each step he took was unwaveringly firm.

He knew that if even he lost his composure, what would she have left to rely on?

After a few steps, he noticed she was still barefoot, and with force, he picked her up.

Carrying her to the operating room, Mo Shuifu naturally resisted, biting his shoulder hard.

“Mo Shuifu, you!” Shen Shihan winced in pain, his eyebrows furrowed tightly.

She really was a woman who didn’t appreciate kindness.

After biting him, she started pounding on his shoulder: “Let me down! Shen Shihan, don’t meddle in my affairs, I have nothing to do with you! Stop bothering me! Are you here to gloat?”

“Why would I gloat over you? If I were here to gloat, would I be staying with you the whole time?!”

Shen Shihan’s voice was deep and strong, raised several notches, causing the passing nurses to jump in fright.

Mo Shuifu fell silent, tears streaming down her cheeks, soaking his shoulder.

Her tears smeared her entire face, her hair damp and disheveled.

Initially, she gritted her teeth to stop herself from crying out, and then, she bit her fingers…

Her fingers hurt, but she was completely oblivious to it.

The pain in her fingers couldn’t compare to the heartache she felt at that moment.

They reached the operating room where attendants were already cleaning Mo Shuifu’s mother. Seeing Shen Shihan and Mo Shuifu enter, they consciously stepped out.

It was deep into the night, silence reigned, not a sound to be heard.

Only after closing the operating room’s door did Shen Shihan put Mo Shuifu down.

“Go and see your aunt,” he said to her.

As soon as he let her go, Mo Shuifu ran to the hospital bed!

With her arms around her mother, she dropped on top of her, weeping bitterly.

“Mom, why didn’t you wait for your daughter? Don’t you know I’ve been longing every day for you to wake up? I’ve been waiting every day. But you abandoned your daughter without even seeing her for the last time… Mom…”

Shen Shihan stood aside, fists clenched, feeling utterly helpless.

He had done everything he could, but still, he wasn’t able to save her mother’s life.

“Mom, didn’t you say you wanted me to take you on an overseas trip? Didn’t you say you wanted to wait for my wedding? You also mentioned helping me take care of the baby… Mom… why did you go ahead alone… Shui Fu only has you as her relative in this world… Mom…”

Mo Shuifu was inconsolable, her wails echoing.

“Mom, with you gone, what should I do… Don’t you know, I’m not afraid of debt, I’m not afraid of hardships, all I want is for you to be well…”

Shen Shihan stepped forward, wrapped an arm around Mo Shuifu’s shoulders, and sighed.

“Mom, would you talk to me, just like we used to whisper to each other… Mom… I bought you a dress, a dark green one, it’s very pretty, would you try it on for me… You said dark green was your favorite…”

In the entire operating room, the only sound was Mo Shuifu’s crying, answered by boundless loneliness.

Her mother would never respond to her again, never.

Fallen leaves turn to yellow butterflies; in times of life and death, the red rhododendron blooms wildly over the hills…

“Mom… why don’t you answer me… don’t you love me? You said you would always be there for Shui Fu… Mom… I want to see you smile, do you know how beautiful you look when you smile…”

“Mom… do you remember when I was very little, I was unreasonable, wanting pretty clothes, crying every day… You clearly knew we couldn’t afford it, yet you worked late into the night, all to buy me an expensive dress… Mom… do you remember, do you remember…”

“Mom… why don’t you answer me… I really want to hear your voice…”

In the operating room, only Mo Shuifu’s hoarse cries persisted.

Tears dampened her clothes; she cradled her mother’s head and drew close to her.

She stroked her mother’s face over and over again with her fingers as if… her mom was just sleeping quietly.

There were new white hairs on her mother’s head; she picked them out and pulled them off.

After doing so, she smiled: “Mom, look, you’ve been worried lately, haven’t you, growing a few white hairs… I’ll pluck them out for you; you’ll always be the most beautiful…”

Shen Shihan’s heart ached sharply.

Mo Shuifu touched her mother’s face, tirelessly.

Her mother passed away peacefully without any painful expression on her face, truly as if she was just sleeping…

“Mom… your daughter has been doing pretty well recently, I just miss the food you cooked… Mom, are you hungry? Shall I feed you…”

Having said that, Mo Shuifu prepared to stand up.

Shen Shihan strode over, crouched down, and wrapped an arm around her shoulder: “Shui Fu, calm down, your aunt has passed away, you have to face reality…”

Mo Shuifu froze entirely, her gaze hazy.

Your aunt has passed away…

Her mother was gone… never to return.

From now on, she would never hear her mother’s voice again, never see her mother smile again…

From now on, no one would touch the back of her hand, calling her “Shui Fu…”

From now on, no one would repeatedly implore her: “Shui Fu, it’s getting cold, remember to wear more clothes, eat more, don’t stay up late, don’t let yourself suffer…”

All that was past turned to mist, life and death hanging by a thread.

“Mom…” Mo Shuifu covered her face, tears streaming through her fingers.

Her cries sharp, in the utter silence.

“Shui Fu, I’ll walk the road ahead with you, believe in me,” Shen Shihan hugged her, only hoping it might ease some of her pain.

“I don’t need it… I don’t need anyone anymore…” Mo Shuifu’s voice choked up, and her eyes reddened.

Trembling, she bent down and began combing her mother’s hair with her fingers.

“Shui Fu, there’s a long future ahead of you; you have to live well.”

“I know, I will live well,” Mo Shuifu’s eyes were devoid of any luster.

Her hollow eyes stared ahead as she quietly combed her mother’s hair.

Her mom always loved cleanliness; she would make her leave beautifully…

Outside the window was the deep night sky, devoid of stars or moon, only the whistling wind making a moaning sound.

In the separation of life and death, heaven and earth are apart.

Shen Shihan stayed by Mo Shuifu’s side the whole time, understanding the feeling of heart-wrenching pain.

The only thing he had said in front of her mother was, “I will cherish her as my life for this lifetime.”

He would definitely keep his promise.

All night, he accompanied her, she said she wanted to sit quietly by her mother all night, so he remained silent, by her side the whole night.